life is not a movie

today i started to get rid of some of my things and to realize how blessed i have been. although i've been a real pain for my family esp my parents they have showed me what unconditional love really means. i'm so sooo thankful for the family God has blesssed me with and all the things i have learned and some experiences along the way. i could of done without some of them!
as things have been taken away from me (phone, car, so-called friends and being on lock down) i have been able to clear my mind some and to realize how lucky i am that I have a God who loves me soo much to give me another chance. for some reason He has kept me here and i have a good feeling now that my life really does have a purpose all i have to do is completely give everything, every part of my being, inside and out to Him. i truely believe He is taken away things to get my attention and to show me i only need him for happiness for true life for purpose for everything i could ever want or ask for. He wants to show me He is more than enough. and being that i'm still holding on to things and still dependent on this life and living here, He wants to take me even furthur to show me His love and His will for my life. he wants me to be alone in desperate need of him that i will have nothing or no one familiar to call on or to have. that i'm so broken and desperate that i will only call on him for everything i need and want in life. going away is not a bad thing it's to show me how much he cares for me and wants everything good for me. he has been jealous all this time and wants me to return to my first love. he wants all of my attention for once and i am gladly going to give it to him. until now i have been dependent on family, friends, jobs, money, drugs, relationships, acceptance from other people, everything but Him. He is going to take all the knowledge i have of Him and His word and increase that and put it in my heart so i can live a life pleasing and honoring Him and Him alone. my mind will be transformed and completely renewed and i will hunger and thirst after righteousness like never before. He will show me how to love myself and to love the beautiful person He created. i will grow in confidence that the work that He began in me will be until completion. thanks be to God for this hope that only He can give.